So I tried opening up...the result is not convincing! I am not the kind of person to be "correlated" to another (when that "other" is not someone I love)...Lol! I don't know if that makes sense but i'll try to break it down.

Right now I feel dull, I am not feeling like "SunShine" and that's because I am forcing myself to be "nice" to some people because it would be inconvenient not to. I don't like being the "bad girl" who breaks people's heart but neither do I want to be the nice and naive girl who gets her heart broken!
But then again, for a heart to be broken it has to be attached...which it is not! So in this situation I am just on the run to be the bad girl... Those moments when you wish you could go back in time...

I really need to be strong and straightforward because the longer I lie to myself, the harder it will be to finally admit the truth...I hate these situations but sometimes I guess you just need to be honest and don't give a fuck about the consequences because the "pain" it might cause now is definitely lower than the pain it will cause a month or a year from now.

I knew I was right! I knew I just should've kept all the focus on MY life at school!!! I lost track for a second and now I feel like i've been slacking! I am definitely not proud of my performances right now... I like my life to be structured, I like to know what I'm doing on what day at what time! I don't like spending time on the phone to hear and sometimes say irrelevant things! I want my life back! And I'm gonna get it! Being honest with myself and with others is what's going to get me what I want. I am not feeling like me at all these days and that SUCKS!!!!

“Most Men would rather deny a hard truth than face it.” I don't want to be "Most Men"

Short-term goal: GET MY LIFE BACK!